“Ashamed”

I feel as though I cannot breathe 

I’m hyperventilating you see 

My heart is pounding like a drum inside 

It’s not a lovely life ride 

I wish this day would end 

Any advice I ask you to send 

I cut with a blade 

It happened so fast 

I’m usually good to call my helpline before I act on it but I didn’t and I wish this pain wouldn’t last 

Mentally and physically I feel ashamed of myself 

They always tell me everything is going to be ok everyday

But why in the hell did I cut today 

I don’t know and I can’t say why I did it cause I really don’t know it just Happened so fast 

And the pain relief I was looking for didn’t last

So guys don’t cut it’s not the right way to deal with things and it might take it away for a while but it won’t forever 

I’m here to talk in any way I can help because I’ve been through a lot and even tho I may relapse again I’ll keep going because I know there’s a light at the end of the tunnel 

Written By: Alisha Larsen  

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